I just re-read my June 1 blog and it is clear I have come a long way as I am feeling much better. I am a bit disappointed this is my first blog since then, but hey, we aren’t perfect.
What is interesting is I am feeling much better but my life is not any less hectic. I still have been on two trips since June 1 and am working like a dog. That said, I feel like I am using my tools more successfully than I was at the beginning of the month.
Firstly, I have been taking my Ashwaganda every day and CBD when I need it. CBD is immediate but I only use it when I need to calm down and focus. The Ashwanganda takes a few weeks to kick in and on Friday during yet another crazy day at work, everything felt a bit more manageable. It all didn’t feel as overwhelming and I felt much more at ease.
Secondly, I have been spending more time with those I care about. My boyfriend and I got away last weekend and saw each other almost every day last week, compared to once every two weeks for the months before. I have also been spending more time with my beloved dog and yesterday I had a lovely spa day with a friend. It was a needed reminder that there really is no replacement for quality time with those you love.
Third, I am back to meditating twice a day (for the most part, I may have missed one here or there) and I am back at my shala. Unfortunately, I still don’t have time to do as much yoga as I would like, but, I am realizing, I need to do what I can when I can. And when I practiced yesterday I felt the best I had in ages. I had the energy and drive to get through and conquered my challenge pose on the first try both times. I even came up with new ideas and inspiration during my practice and at the end I was overcome with an overwhelming sense of gratitude.
I am recognizing the pace of my life is not slowing down any time soon and may intensify as I have big changes on the horizon that are going to cause all different kinds of stress. But reading this and reflecting on the small changes that occurred over the past few weeks have shown me just by chipping away each day, you can start to round out the edges.